You became ash today
I never got to say goodbye
Was the courtesy of a text too much to ask for?
I allowed myself to cry today
To put out the flames
I would give anything to take your pain away
A tattoo is all I have left of you
The air to my fire
That was extinguished within me.
Where was God?
Why didn’t he protect you?
Is God even to blame for the choice you made?
No phoenix ever rose-
Perfectly healthy young men aren’t supposed to die
Especially by their own hand
You were loved today
The way I loved you every day
Even if I never understand your choice.
You leave me yearning for simpler times-
I have no best friend
You took that away from me.
I feel selfish
I miss you so much
As I watch you become ash today.