You Became Ash Today

You became ash today

I never got to say goodbye

Was the courtesy of a text too much to ask for?

I allowed myself to cry today

To put out the flames

I would give anything to take your pain away

A tattoo is all I have left of you

The air to my fire

That was extinguished within me.

Where was God?

Why didn’t he protect you?

Is God even to blame for the choice you made?

No phoenix ever rose-

Perfectly healthy young men aren’t supposed to die

Especially by their own hand

You were loved today

The way I loved you every day

Even if I never understand your choice.

You leave me yearning for simpler times-

I have no best friend

You took that away from me.

I feel selfish

I miss you so much

As I watch you become ash today.